Yes DONATIONS are still needed!
Check and Re-check.
Sarra died tragically on Friday afternoon. I was up all night and did what I could to show my support. I also found myself many times over checking and re-checking my motives BUT honestly found no malfunction. I was simply ‘THERE FOR THE FAMILY’ the best I could be, because in my heart I knew, that it was the right thing to do.
Yesterday things were rather quiet. Her “immediate” family has gone into seclusion after all the drama of the days prior.
Who could blame them?
I personally, lost myself in old VHS tapes. Comfortable in my own numbness.
Sarra’s death was my loss too… Afterall I had, at her father’s request tried to mother her (albeit at a distance) over the last several months with daily check-ins, phone calls, texts and FB messages.
Though she had all these family members local, when something really bad happened, I was the first one she called on and I am 300 miles away.
The last time something happened, she couldn’t call. Her death instantaneous.
So many times, I wanted to gas up the car, and head for South Florida BUT circumstances wouldn’t allow it.
I saw this tragedy coming. I did! 😦 Although I thought SHE would lose her father, not the other way around.
And now, even though she is GONE, I somehow feel my job is not done. And I NEED to be there for the CLOSURE, but can’t be. Which amplifies my own reality and that is that we are still STUCK, removed ( but not insolated ) , and HELPLESS to do anything about it!
YESTERDAY or the DAY before, I couldn’t bring myself to even mention this fundraiser or the donations that WE need to continue. IT didn’t seem appropriate somehow.
But it is MONDAY, and I know I let myself get sidetracked by Sarra’s death over the weekend and in doing so, lost momentum in seeing to our own needs . Maybe I needed the respite of focusing on someone else’s crisis for a little while. Selfish maybe? Right now I don’t have time to ponder on it further.
Donations ARE still NEEDED. So please if you can find it in your heart, and able, send something. Every little bit helps!
Our initial GOAL was $3000.00. We have raised $1,745.00 to date. We still need to raise another $ 1,255 .00 to get us to a safe plateau. And the sooner the better, because every day we remain stuck is another day lost in our recovery process.
Thank you all for your kindness, support and understanding NOT only in this fundraiser, but with the tragedy of Sarra’s death.
God Bless you All!