Wednesday’s Reality

Today should be a good day. The 2nd means we made it through another month without going hungry and our food assistance is replenished for the month. I even have gas to get to and from the grocery store in a neighboring town. The problem is I have a past due electric bill, and a shut off order applied to my account as of yesterday. With this in mind, I am hesitant to purchase food ( particularly persishables)

The past-due amount is $ 171.00.

Today, I also face having my internet shut off again. That amount is $128.00

And AGAIN, the mortgage went unpaid for September. $431.87. They gave me 7 days ( on the 30th ) to pay or face foreclosure. Actually they are trying to get us to quit claim title back over to them. 😦

Any one can be paid directly to the specific entity and I will gladly provide specifics.

And I am still living in what is fast becoming squalor. With our plumbing and back load of trash still piled everywhere.

it sucks because I know that we are doing EVERYTHING we know to do to help ourselves. AND I can’t continue living this way. I don’t wish this on my worst enemy… TODAY I feel as though I am suffocating.

AND YET, Every move I make I question whether or IT would be pleasing to GOD! Even pleasing to those I have grown close to.

I have tried desperately to remain positive through this. I cling to my faith. I pray and I pray some more.

I have reached out in every way I know how. AND YES, I realize that no one here owes me one red cent and I know how all this must sound. I know how it sounds to me. I hate being so dependent, but the fact remains that I am, and this is why I began this fundraiser to begin with.

TRULY, I don’t want to keep BEATING a dead horse. This is our only HOPE! To reach someone that is financially able to STEP up beyond all reason and HELP where the GREATEST needs are!

Last but not least, I am quite thankful for the assistance we have gotten in this fundraiser. A FEW have GONE WAY ABOVE and BEYOND!

It’s amazing, quite honestly! I hope I have sufficiently expressed my gratitude to everyone who has helped us on this journey, Sometime I wonder about that too.

However, donations are still DESPERATELY needed.

So PLEASE, if you are able, please donate. If you have questions or would like to help with a specific need, please ask.

Thank you ALL for listening…

My pleas are heartfelt and genuine,

God Bless You.

Awww Geez! Now what?

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Well, here we are on the 29th day of September and I think it’s time to admit that I feel as though I have painted myself into a corner, particularly where this fundraiser is concerned meaning more than five months ago, I set a goal for this fundraiser of $3000.00.

I didn’t want to seem GREEDY because I am NOT. And it seemed a reasonable amount and would have been I think but I underestimated the time in which it would take to get this far. Also, I never imagined that we would still be unemployed or that we would still be struggling in the day-to-day .
There I said it!

Please realize that was really HARD to say!

A few weeks ago I was so discouraged that I felt like throwing in the towel, dismantling the blog and bidding my farewells to people who have become VERY important to me and crawling under a rock. Then I realized that by doing so, by giving up, I would be serving up a GREAT injustice to ALL concerned. And yes I realize there are many concerned, and I feel really responsible for the messages I send out to my readership.

Aside from the fact that it is just NOT financially feasible to just GIVE up now. Fact IS we still need you.

That being said, we have raised $2805.00 to date! SO YAY!!!!! We are so thankful to those who have supported us and continue to support us! And believe me, we still NEED continued support. At the same time I hope to make a difference to others who may be facing similar circumstances.

SO with optimism and a lot of needs left to reckon with, we continue on this journey to getting our life back. I ask that you try and forget that initial goal. The goal now is to become whole and self-sufficient again. Whatever that takes.

AGAIN … Thanks for patience, understanding, kindnesses and support.

YES donations are still VERY much needed and appreciated .

Please be assured that WE are still doing EVERYTHING and will continue to do everything in our own power to improve our own situation.

– God Bless

P.S. I took down our needs page because even I became OVERWHELMED in reading it.

But the short list for today is 1) mortgage 2) overdue electric bill 3) We are still living with plumbing and trash disposal issues. Again this is the short list.

If you’d like to help DIRECTLY with/to a specific need, please inquire. I will gladly provide details.

Thanks Again! πŸ™‚

This and that, twixt and tween

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Monday, September 16

Hello y’all!

YES I am still here and I thought it was time for a post! I have spent the last few days doing a lot of praying and wracking my brains as to what to do next.

First off ….As of the this morning, just hours before this blogs five – month anniversary we hit the 200 follower mark! Now how is that for timing?

With that said, THANK YOU! ! Special thanks to those who have been quite faithful in offering friendship and encouragement. What a incredible experience this has been so far. IT TRULY has!

The irony is now, I find myself in a quagmire of sorts, mostly because my worldly woes still have me in a choke-hold and because of that, I got all caught up in the race, broke my own rules and in effect, created my own monster…. I believe it was out of my fear of failing BUT it did not allow me to properly appreciate or enjoy all the many blessings ( not all of which were monetary ) that have come our way in this process. Smiles. You all know who you are.

Perhaps at times, I came across as being TOO NEEDY, or GREEDY or EVEN Demanding! I have NO excuse other than desperation I guess !

And still ya’ll were so patient and kind with me!

Aside from that, life happens and offers its own stress , mood swings, and family disputes
( immediate and otherwise) . Just yesterday I deleted 30 FB friends over a squabble between my husband and one of his siblings. While I have managed to keep most of it off of this BLOG, it happens and it does side track me.

For that I apologize. It was NEVER my intent to turn this fundraiser into any kind of side show or cause hard feelings of any kind, so if I have PLEASE FORGIVE ME!

Which brings me to today.

We are mere hours from our 5- month Anniversary and still no doubt struggling and staring down deadlines.

Perhaps a brief sabbatical is in order so I can truly get my head and my heart in the right place. Perhaps God will see that I get one. πŸ˜› I have come to realize that he and he ALONE has all the power. I know he will take care of us in his own way, and his own time. I am struggling with how this might relate to my own reasonings. I have some VERY high hopes for the transitioning of this blog too which I haven’t quite figured out. One thing for sure is you are going to be seeing a lot of changes around here.

Just know that we are not giving up! I still have a lot of hope, and faith in GOD,in myself and in the people I call friends. Yep, still EXPECTANT of a few more miracles. πŸ™‚

Thank you ALL so VERY much and may God Bless You ALWAYS !

PS IF you do not see me blogging for a few days. Please NO WORRIES. I ‘ll be back! I can still be reached by traditional means. Our contact info is all over the blog.

How empty is empty?

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Or I pose this question.. “How empty does empty have to be?”

WARNING!!! WARNING!!! WARNING !!!! Brutal Honesty Ahead!

BELIEVE ME! It’s Empty! It has been 10 days since our last donation, and that went straight to the mortgage.

PLEASE FORGIVE ME as I truly am at a loss for words, and I’m struggling with my thoughts today!

Hand to mouth IS NOTHING new to me. I’ve never made a huge amount of money, despite decades of hard work ( other than a couple of hard-earned wind-falls back in the 90s ) BUT it was always MORE than enough! And YES, even ENOUGH to share a bit which I did on a regular basis when I was able . There was always a GREAT comfort in knowing that there was a paycheck coming at the end of the week. Right now we still don’t have that luxury. And it’s a scary, way to live.

You see, when you have nothing, it’s NOT ENOUGH which was and continues to be the reason for this fundraiser.

I don’t know what I expected when I began this fundraiser nearly five months ago. I do know that we have received more than we ever could have hoped for, having raised $2,610.00 in the course of five months through the generosity of 19 individuals…!!! 5 of those, donated more than once. The donations of one individual, accounts for more than half of the donations received for our welfare . This individual has been AMAZINGLY generous! In fact the whole of ya’ll have been considering you were all strangers to me five months ago. WE ARE GRATEFUL for all the support. I know we have a lot of you , pulling for us. And I love that. This post is not about that!

Please, now I ask you to think about this. 5 months, $2,610.00. We have lived on that, for the most part with not much else coming into the household .

So please YOUR DONATIONS are still NEEDED and GREATLY appreciated….

Again, hand-to-mouth is nothing new to me. I have a lot of faith, and always try to remain positive. It’s not always easy though.

Furthermore, I am NOT trying to offend anyone or turn anyone off or away from helping me or someone else for that matter!

I’m just trying to be truthful in the way I am feeling today.

Yes I am frustrated. it’s been two years of sputtering for us. NO at times, I don’t understand. Then I think if I don’t understand, how can I expect anyone else to.

Yes, I am feeling discouraged! All we want is our lives back with some semblance of normalcy and it seems so elusive. Is that too much to ask? Really? I don’t think so.

Do I feel worthy of more than subsistence ? HECK YEAH!

Do I feel any shame in what I am doing? ABSOLUTELY NOT! Because I know we are doing the VERY BEST that we can with what we have to work with.

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PAY PAL is PREFERRED for a couple of reasons. 1) Funds are transferred in REAL TIME giving us immediate access. 2) My mortgage holders have an pay pal account and I can transfer directly to them from my pay pal account. 3) The donations are easier to keep track of with their statement system.

If you would like to donate via pay-pal, please click here.( you will be directed to our personal website where you will find a button for paypal. ) Click on it to donate any amount )

Another one of ‘THOSE’ posts! :) $390.00 NEEDED!

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Good Morning –

Hmmmmmmmm. How do I write this post?

There are days when I can almost forget our situation. This IS NOT one of them SO I ask for your understanding and patience with me today as I once again REACH out with some immediate needs in mind.

$390.00 to GO!

No not just a random number I picked out of a hat. It’s the balance of a $3000.00 goal set nearly five months ago. After raising $2,610.00 in as much time , it would seem like a piece of cake to come up with huh?

Well……it would be if we had a viable income which we don’t. Ron has an interview this afternoon. Hopefully we’ll have a real job by the end of the day but it’s early yet.

Anyway, Time stops for no one and as life happens, the needs shift and change and change again.

Our last VERY generous donation ( Labor Day ) went to pay August’s mortgage. it is due again on the 16th ( but we have until the end of the month to pay without penalty.

The following ( below the dotted line ) represents a list of items still not reckoned with ( conditions we are still living with , ( I could actually add a few things to it ) but AGAIN those NEEDS get put on the back burner….

But in trying to stick within the guidelines I myself set for this fundraiser, we are talking about $390.00. $390.00. would purchase a burn barrel which would help us get rid of paper trash. It would afford us a couple dump runs, it would put gas in our car and maybe even pay for a hair cut.. . It would pay a couple of small bills this month . Today, I have just shy of $6 to my name.

FACT IS, we need it as much now as we did 4.5 months ago.

SO once AGAIN, I am asking for donations. PLEASE, PLEASE PLEASE and as ALWAYS thank you!

We are still SO VERY grateful for ALL the support and friendship we have found here.

Please never forget that! God Bless!

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1) Garbage Disposal ( an accumulation of household garbage stacked up that needs disposing of. The cause is from from not being able to pay for our regular trash service for several months , and then an escalation of the bill long after service was stopped )

2) Septic Service ( within a month of moving in, we realized this problem but remedied it by not using our washer. Bottom line, our septic systems needs pumped out )

3) Home Maintenance & Repairs to include a major plumbing fix Right now we can’t use our kitchen sink at all and our only water source is in the bathroom.

4) We also desperately need to purchase a used washing machine.