Cultivation in Progress …

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Yesterday, I became totally convinced of God’s grace in my life although I did have more than just an inkling before . And it came in the form of a $7 donation. Yes, that’s right! And I am truly humbled by the gesture! Thank you.

No $7 isn’t the cure-all for my worldly financial woes, but better yet, PROOF that my God is there, working through others to provide for us as our daily struggle to get from one day to the next continues…

That $7, is exactly, almost to the penny, what we needed to get through yesterday. 🙂

I am just amazed to the point of being speechless. That’s why I didn’t update yesterday. I spent ALOT of time basking in this realization that God is there, has always been there, and will always be there for me , regardless of my flaws, shortcoming and missteps in this life.

Today, I woke as I do most days, before dawn. Again penniless. My eyes popped open and I pivoted to sit straight up on the side of my bed before my feet even hit the floor and I found myself praising God for yesterday’s provision instead of crying to Him about another day OF needs not met .

I have been working on this. Practicing the art of praying for a while now.

I found myself thinking about how much easier the prayer thing was getting. How often I find myself throughout the day, saying ‘Thank you Lord.’ for all these little blessings, even those blessings that I don’t initially see as a blessing.

No, this is not some “POOF” DIVINE epiphany or intervention really. It’s all happened quite subtly. I believe that HE has been working on me for a long time. I also believe that I have had to work on myself. And finally, I believe that all that hard work and preparation is finally beginning to pay off and I don’t mean monetarily.

Mind you, He’s not finished with me and I have a long ways to go, but my excitement comes from getting to the point where I can feel the changes going on within myself.

‘Practice makes Perfect’ they say and some habits are VERY hard to break but as the old habits fall by the way side, new habits are forming. One is that I find myself more steadfast in my faith, regardless of what this life throws at me . Another, is that with each layer of pride I shed, the more open and grateful I am in receiving.

Thank YOU God for all of this.

And thank you all who have joined me in this process. Some of you, and you know who are, I truly believe are God-Sent to guide me. 🙂

Have a Blessed Weekend Everyone !

Today, I’m feeling hopeful and very grateful!

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Good Morning All!

Today, Im feeling hopeful and very very grateful …

Not that all our needs are being met because realistically that would take the considerable amount of about $3000.00 and in a relatively short amount of time JUST to get us STABLE again. And yes, that would be the ideal situation. But we don’t live in an ideal world, do we? Besides I don’t want to be greedy.

But still, I am grateful!

I am grateful for the help we have received as a direct result of this blog.

I am grateful for the kind words, and encouragement from our visitors.

I am grateful to friends ( old and new) to those who believe in us.

For the friends that I am ( or should I say, we are ) making on this journey,

I am grateful for the people who are following this blog and for sharing this blog with others.

I am grateful to the people who hold our mortgage who saw fit yesterday to accept YET another partial payment of $150.00. This buys us a little more time to come up with a viable solution. To meet our financial obligations.

I am grateful to the judge, presiding over our business eviction case who for whatever reason, is taking his time signing the FINAL judgement because for every day we can be there is another opportunity to earn our own keep.

I am grateful to my husband, who gets up and goes out EVERY day to try to make us a living. For his ( for the most part) good nature about our situation. ( most would have thrown in the towel a long time ago )

I am grateful for my faith because without it I know I would have given up too. I’m strong but not that strong typically.

AND last but not least, I AM SO VERY GRATEFUL to GOD , who has guided me through life and through this most humbling experience.

I HAVE to believe that there is something to be learned here and I feel chosen somehow not only to experience it, but to share, and hopefully inspire others along the way.

So YES, I am GRATEFUL because I have so MUCH to be thankful for and I mean that with all sincerity.

I hope everyone, has a wonderful weekend!

As always, may GOD BLESS you All!

~ C

Friday Update ( recap of this last week)

The week, started out rather dismally. Rain was in the forecast, and the weather people did not disappoint. I love rain, but it’s really bad for our second-hand goods business ( or what is left of it) . The only way to drive traffic our way is to put about 200 square feet of merchandise OUT front in the weather, whatever that might be. At the first sign of rain, my husband scrambles to get it packed up and inside again. With everything inside, no one even knows we are there, generally. Besides, with everything back in the store, it’s really not safe to have customers walking about because of the trip and fall hazard, especially with no lights on inside. The skylights help some but it’s still kind of dim especially in an overcast condition.

Also…

The thrift store is located in one of those warehouse complexes with storefronts on the front row. You actually have to come into the complex to do business there. I mean it’s not one of those strip malls or easy in and out situation.

During the season, the place is bustling with traffic. But now that the season has ended, there are only three of us there trying to do business. An older gent on the opposite end, is a retired para-legal. He moon lights doing business forms, divorces and taxes — by appointment. There is also a dog groomer right next to us, but she is only coming in a few days a week now that most of her customers ( snow birds) have gone north again…

Tuesday, Wednesday Thursday, things got a bit brighter which helped with day-to-day incidentals. Sadly no bills got paid AGAIN and they are beginning to stack up overwhelmingly.

My morning began with an email to the people who hold our mortgage asking for yet another extension. We were paying by the week up until a month ago, and we have not been able to pay them since. The hope was to come up with a month’s payment by today, but so far it hasn’t happened. Thankfully the wife was nice about it. Not to say she doesn’t have her moments, BUT generally I must say they have helped us more than anyone else involved, despite the fact that as of December 31, 2012, we were $2500.00 in arrears with them for 2012.. . I got that figure from a tax statement they sent me. I am also keeping track of payments on a spread sheet. I think that figure might be slightly less considering we had been pretty diligent with those weekly payments for several months. Anyway, the last check I gave them for $125.00 for the week cleared my bank on March 26th.

But at least they gave us few more days to figure this out and I am grateful for the timely reprieve.

So that’s it for now. Perhaps, today will be the day that things turn around for us. As always, we live in faith.

— God Bless