Wednesday’s Reality

Today should be a good day. The 2nd means we made it through another month without going hungry and our food assistance is replenished for the month. I even have gas to get to and from the grocery store in a neighboring town. The problem is I have a past due electric bill, and a shut off order applied to my account as of yesterday. With this in mind, I am hesitant to purchase food ( particularly persishables)

The past-due amount is $ 171.00.

Today, I also face having my internet shut off again. That amount is $128.00

And AGAIN, the mortgage went unpaid for September. $431.87. They gave me 7 days ( on the 30th ) to pay or face foreclosure. Actually they are trying to get us to quit claim title back over to them. 😦

Any one can be paid directly to the specific entity and I will gladly provide specifics.

And I am still living in what is fast becoming squalor. With our plumbing and back load of trash still piled everywhere.

it sucks because I know that we are doing EVERYTHING we know to do to help ourselves. AND I can’t continue living this way. I don’t wish this on my worst enemy… TODAY I feel as though I am suffocating.

AND YET, Every move I make I question whether or IT would be pleasing to GOD! Even pleasing to those I have grown close to.

I have tried desperately to remain positive through this. I cling to my faith. I pray and I pray some more.

I have reached out in every way I know how. AND YES, I realize that no one here owes me one red cent and I know how all this must sound. I know how it sounds to me. I hate being so dependent, but the fact remains that I am, and this is why I began this fundraiser to begin with.

TRULY, I don’t want to keep BEATING a dead horse. This is our only HOPE! To reach someone that is financially able to STEP up beyond all reason and HELP where the GREATEST needs are!

Last but not least, I am quite thankful for the assistance we have gotten in this fundraiser. A FEW have GONE WAY ABOVE and BEYOND!

It’s amazing, quite honestly! I hope I have sufficiently expressed my gratitude to everyone who has helped us on this journey, Sometime I wonder about that too.

However, donations are still DESPERATELY needed.

So PLEASE, if you are able, please donate. If you have questions or would like to help with a specific need, please ask.

Thank you ALL for listening…

My pleas are heartfelt and genuine,

God Bless You.

Awww Geez! Now what?

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Well, here we are on the 29th day of September and I think it’s time to admit that I feel as though I have painted myself into a corner, particularly where this fundraiser is concerned meaning more than five months ago, I set a goal for this fundraiser of $3000.00.

I didn’t want to seem GREEDY because I am NOT. And it seemed a reasonable amount and would have been I think but I underestimated the time in which it would take to get this far. Also, I never imagined that we would still be unemployed or that we would still be struggling in the day-to-day .
There I said it!

Please realize that was really HARD to say!

A few weeks ago I was so discouraged that I felt like throwing in the towel, dismantling the blog and bidding my farewells to people who have become VERY important to me and crawling under a rock. Then I realized that by doing so, by giving up, I would be serving up a GREAT injustice to ALL concerned. And yes I realize there are many concerned, and I feel really responsible for the messages I send out to my readership.

Aside from the fact that it is just NOT financially feasible to just GIVE up now. Fact IS we still need you.

That being said, we have raised $2805.00 to date! SO YAY!!!!! We are so thankful to those who have supported us and continue to support us! And believe me, we still NEED continued support. At the same time I hope to make a difference to others who may be facing similar circumstances.

SO with optimism and a lot of needs left to reckon with, we continue on this journey to getting our life back. I ask that you try and forget that initial goal. The goal now is to become whole and self-sufficient again. Whatever that takes.

AGAIN … Thanks for patience, understanding, kindnesses and support.

YES donations are still VERY much needed and appreciated .

Please be assured that WE are still doing EVERYTHING and will continue to do everything in our own power to improve our own situation.

– God Bless

P.S. I took down our needs page because even I became OVERWHELMED in reading it.

But the short list for today is 1) mortgage 2) overdue electric bill 3) We are still living with plumbing and trash disposal issues. Again this is the short list.

If you’d like to help DIRECTLY with/to a specific need, please inquire. I will gladly provide details.

Thanks Again! 🙂

Light… glorious light ….

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‘Along your ride called “Life”, you may encounter rough storms. The dark clouds and unrelenting winds may bring feelings of sadness, grief, depression, anxiety or maybe even anger or resentment. Keep Riding. Just ahead, the clouds will disappear, the winds will blow over and you will find your peace. It is now that you become the bright light for others going through their storm. If you can, help them through it.’
~–Unknown–~

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Out of Suffering …

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Out of suffering has emerged
the strongest souls;
the most massive characters are
seared with scars .. ~ Unknown

Yep I may be a little beat up ( scarred up ) BUT I’m not broken and I’m still standing …

Thank you God!

Image Credit: Reiki Revolution

One Sows and Another Reaps

Thank you Cheryl Foston for this post. It holds deep meaning for me today….Timely and thought-provoking and it is so true! Often, WE FORGET. Every person who crosses our path helps, molds, and influences is one way or another. In times of plenty WE TEND TO FORGET, that we WERE all SUPPORTED in one way or another ALONG the way. Some are helped more than others, unfortunately. Too many take it for granted. But none of us can actually say that we didn’t get any help along the way. Be Blessed!

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gratitudeHave you taken the time to acknowledge and thank those that have helped you along the way? No matter where you are in life, you didn’t get there all by yourself.

Everyone gets some type of help from those who have come before them, those who walk beside them, as well as those who follow them. There is no such thing as a self-made man or woman. Now, you may be tempted to say that you are a self-made man or woman, but before you do, go way back and think about all your teachers throughout your educational years. I am sure a couple of them helped you better understand a subject, which led to you graduating. Let’s not forget about your parents who taught and helped mold you to become the person you are today. Even if your parents weren’t the best parents, they still taught you something which…

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This and that, twixt and tween

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Monday, September 16

Hello y’all!

YES I am still here and I thought it was time for a post! I have spent the last few days doing a lot of praying and wracking my brains as to what to do next.

First off ….As of the this morning, just hours before this blogs five – month anniversary we hit the 200 follower mark! Now how is that for timing?

With that said, THANK YOU! ! Special thanks to those who have been quite faithful in offering friendship and encouragement. What a incredible experience this has been so far. IT TRULY has!

The irony is now, I find myself in a quagmire of sorts, mostly because my worldly woes still have me in a choke-hold and because of that, I got all caught up in the race, broke my own rules and in effect, created my own monster…. I believe it was out of my fear of failing BUT it did not allow me to properly appreciate or enjoy all the many blessings ( not all of which were monetary ) that have come our way in this process. Smiles. You all know who you are.

Perhaps at times, I came across as being TOO NEEDY, or GREEDY or EVEN Demanding! I have NO excuse other than desperation I guess !

And still ya’ll were so patient and kind with me!

Aside from that, life happens and offers its own stress , mood swings, and family disputes
( immediate and otherwise) . Just yesterday I deleted 30 FB friends over a squabble between my husband and one of his siblings. While I have managed to keep most of it off of this BLOG, it happens and it does side track me.

For that I apologize. It was NEVER my intent to turn this fundraiser into any kind of side show or cause hard feelings of any kind, so if I have PLEASE FORGIVE ME!

Which brings me to today.

We are mere hours from our 5- month Anniversary and still no doubt struggling and staring down deadlines.

Perhaps a brief sabbatical is in order so I can truly get my head and my heart in the right place. Perhaps God will see that I get one. 😛 I have come to realize that he and he ALONE has all the power. I know he will take care of us in his own way, and his own time. I am struggling with how this might relate to my own reasonings. I have some VERY high hopes for the transitioning of this blog too which I haven’t quite figured out. One thing for sure is you are going to be seeing a lot of changes around here.

Just know that we are not giving up! I still have a lot of hope, and faith in GOD,in myself and in the people I call friends. Yep, still EXPECTANT of a few more miracles. 🙂

Thank you ALL so VERY much and may God Bless You ALWAYS !

PS IF you do not see me blogging for a few days. Please NO WORRIES. I ‘ll be back! I can still be reached by traditional means. Our contact info is all over the blog.